Sorry this isn't going to be a happy post... so if you need happy you might wanna stop reading now. :) Seriously, I am ready to burst!!! Out of frustration? Regret? Unhappiness? Discontent? A combination of them all?
Today was predetermined to be an out-of-the-ordinary day. Normally, I babysit just on Tuesday, Wednesday & Friday; but my friend had a meeting today, so I knew I'd be baby sitting. In my mind, I planned around that and knew that in order to make both the gym & grocery shopping today one would have to be done this morning. But I was soooo tired that I fell asleep on the sofa after my son got on the bus; next thing I knew it was 10:30... oops. So trying to regroup, I decided I could squeeze both in after my son's therapy sessions tonight. Wrong again! He forgot his coat at the hospital; one of his therapists offered to drop it off & by the time she got here it was too late to attempt both since I have to be home for the night by 6:30 for family responsibilities tonight.
Honestly, I don't know quite why I'm upset to the level I am. Some level of irritation I could rationalize... but really I'm ready to scream , cry or some combination of the two... and its ridiculous. Maybe its because I'm mad at myself for sleeping this morning, knowing it was going to be such a busy day. Maybe its because I procrastinated on getting meals planned & the grocery shopping done. Maybe its because my workouts have been so minimal this week & missing another day is frustrating. Maybe its because I feel myself slipping back into the pattern of letting everything & everyone else come before doing what I need to do to live a healthy lifestyle... and while I know I can't let that happen, finding the balance is feeling totally overwhelming at the moment...
After I'm done with my family stuff tonight, I'm going to spend some serious time trying to figure out a solution... or at least some strategies to try for the next few weeks.... I used to be so much better at this part... I don't know what the heck happened!
It looks like a foot. It tastes like a foot.
1 month ago
6 comments:
Julie - don't be so hard on yourself. You're one step ahead of many by realizing you're starting to slip back into old habits. Now just don't let the slip become a slide. You can do it! We're all here for you! And if you need to cry - have at it! That's okay too!
I agree, don't be so hard on yourself. One easy thing I found for myself is to have some GOOD and CHALLENGING dvd's at home for days like this. Some days there just isn't time for going to the gym, but that doesn't mean I can't get in a good workout.
Keep a good selection at home so you can workout after your son goes to bed or if you have a busy day, before you shower and head out.
forgive yourself, learn something, make your plan and move on.. You are doing this, embrace it as part of your journey!
Hang in there!
i can relate to your frustration - but relax, exhale and release! i hate when i sleep or waste time when i have things to do also, but maybe it is your body's way of telling you u needed the rest. in any event, u cannot slip back into old habits once you recognize the symptoms! so u will get it under control! :-D
I say cry, scream, and generally act out of control if you want to! :) If I had really accepted that I was mad at myself for avalanching (it was way more than a slide) back into my old bad habits, I wouldn't be so upset now that it's taking so long to re-lose the weight. Think of how far you've come, and then realize that you don't want to go back to where you were. As Smoky the Bear said, "Only you can prevent avalanches"... wait, he did say that, right? :) Good luck!
From on Juli to another, we all have our good and our bad days. Tomorrow is always a new day. Don't beat yourself up. We are all here to support each other. Now that you wrote it, you got it out and cane move forward.
I wish you continued support and positive energy.
You were tired and that's probably why you slept in. Your body just needed the rest. Well it was just one day,and what I have learned from bad days is that you take note, make necessary changes and forgive yourself.
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