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During the summer 0f 2008, I woke up one morning with a drive to live a healthy lifestyle. Since then, I've made many changes and lost nearly 50 pounds. Many of my friends and family members have come to me, asking about what I'm doing & how I'm doing it. While I certainly would never claim to be an expert, I'm happy to share what I've learned along the way.

So after careful thought... "The Accidental Fat Chick" has hatched... with the hope of helping at least one person and to be the accountability I need to finish what I started. :)

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Sunday, March 28, 2010

When The First Teardrop Fell

There I was on the Leg Press resting between sets & I felt it... a teardrop roll down my cheek. Just my left cheek mind you, I don't why it is my silly eyes don't cry together. What was the cause of this embarrassing display of tears at the gym? Not pain in my troublesome shoulder. Not pain in my once badly injured ankle. Not my never-ending back pain. Not some new gym related ailment. Not fatigue from general over-exertion. Nope, nothing like that. It was because of the presence of a person... and not even a person I know.

There was this person - whose gender & description I will omit from this little story - who reminded me so much of another person - one who contributed to some of the greatest hurt of my life. The resembelence was so uncanny I couldn't help but staring. Though I knew there was zero likihood that this could be the same person, my sometimes devious mind couldn't help but envisioning what it might look like if they had a little "help" falling off the StairMaster. I know, terrible of me right?

When I first spotted this person, I was down on a bike & they were on the aforementioned StairMaster. I finished my time on the bike and decided that I would go upstairs, where with any luck I wouldn't have to see this person. I get up there and quite happily start doing my sets on the circuit machines... all was going smoothly (they were out of sight) until I came to the Leg Press. Then they were in my direct line of sight once again, but needing my set count I determined not to let the presence of this "unknown" but oh-so-familiar person bother me. So there I am doing my first set of leg presses & look to the tv on my right. The subject matter on the screen was something that further reminded me of this person I'd like to forget. And this is when I felt it... the once often, now less frequent overwhelming sense of hurt & the burning of tears wanting to surface. And between sets one and two... that first teardrop fell. And the last! Sitting there I reminded myself that nothing in my past is worth sacrificing my future & I proceeded to finish my circuit sets & move on to core sets. I have to admit when this person "joined" me on the mats for core sets, I was more than happy it was time for me to go back downstairs to the elliptical, lol.
This whole episode at the gym reminded me of something I've been wanting to write about for awhile... so I plan to write about it tomorrow.

For now, I have to drag myself back to the gym & work on getting Around the World some more. If you want a refresher in all that is required for the challenge, this post has the details. Today is the end of the week two, in theory that means I should have completed approximately one-third of each component... we'll see where I'm at after my workout today.

Oh, one last thing about the person at the gym... they are competing in the Around the World Challenge also... so maybe for purposes of added motivation I will pretend they really are the person they remind me so much of, lol.

Just for fun.... do you think its true that everyone has a twin out there somewhere?


Melissa said...

I know exactly what you mean! I think everyone does have someone out there that is their "twin". My parents were on vacation once and saw mine.

Keelie said...

YES! I have always thought this.

Gosh- I am so sorry something so hurtful was done to you to bring up those emotions. Good for you for pressing on the finish your workout!

{Absolutely, Positively} Josie said...

hi, Julie. isn't that weird about the right side aching. since we both had our gallbladders out, it makes me wonder. also, do you find it harder to lose weight after gallbladder removal? are you any less tolerant of fat?
good job on the workout!

Buzzy & Breezelys Mama said...

First, let me say that YES, I believe everyone has a twin. Except for me. According to my family and friends I mustve been one of sextuplets because people I know are always swearing theyve seen me in places there is no way I'd be. Second, to answer your comment question on my blog. It is SO NOT weird that you miss it. I miss it so much. I've been gone for a little over 4 years and I miss the sun, the beaches, the people, the culture, the food, and even sometimes the pure superficiality of it. does that make sense? And lastly, I am so sorry that someone hurt you so badly as to cause that kind of reaction. I too have someone in my life, err should I say WAS in my life that would provoke the same reaction if I saw him or a look-a-like. (((HUGGGS)))

Anonymous said...

WOW! Firstly I wish to say that you've been so strong, this person in your life has obviously hurt you more than we could possibly know, and you are being the stronger person by realising that the past will NOT effect your future.

Secondly - WELL DONE on your journey! I'm on mine, I've been on it since 4th Jan 2010 and lost 19 lbs so far.

And thirdly, you so far have the best blog I've read! You're words are so gripping, that I've read more on yours than I have on anyones. Well done to you!!

I'm going to follow you if that is ok :) Perhaps we can help each other in tips and support on our journeys