Tough Choices

Remember my beautiful diamond studs that are on layaway? I've officially come to the decision that I am going to cancel the layaway & hold off on getting them for now... unless of course I change my mind before I actually get the deed done. Here's the thing, The Husband agreed that I could get them as a reward for getting to a goal weight. Then he let me put them on layaway when he figured I was close enough that I'd be there by the time they were paid for. But things haven't gone that way at all now have they? Here I am still at least 40 pounds from where I want to be and the earrings are due to be picked up in about two weeks. Yes, I like them a lot. Yes, I want them badly. Yes, I have come a long ways (and he's even said I deserve them). Yes, they were a good deal at $600. But the bottom line is I don't feel like I've done the work to deserve them just yet & it would be a total waste of that $600 if I got them and they just sat on the dresser for months til I get to a goal weight. Or worse, if I gave in and wore them before the goal was met and felt like I didn't deserve to wear them. I wouldn't enjoy them that way. I figure I can put another pair on layaway when I'm at (within maybe 10 pounds) of a goal weight. And until then the money can be spent on something more "responsible" like... maybe the new furniture we need.

I went furniture browsing today. The day before payday, so that there was no temptation to impulse purchase. I found this set that that I'm more or less in love with... its the only thing that really caught my eye in the whole freakin store.

There is an accent chair that goes with it... which is what really drew me in. This is what happens to me, I set out fulling intent on being happy to get a sofa & add chairs later... but I fall for a whole freakin set. I could get just the sofa & chair with ottoman or the sofa & love seat... but I can't decide... the set is so attractive together. The good news is that I checked in at the store on base & they can order all of the pieces for me at a savings of about $600 (plus no sales tax & free delivery). Plus, I only have to pay 25% down & the rest when they get it in... which is nice because I can avoid using credit for it that way. The bad news is that it will take them several weeks to get it.

Since I'm going to cancel the layaway, I might replace something I lost last spring. It was this simple silver heart necklace that was inscribed with "The Journey Begins." I wore it every day as a reminder that every day was a new chance to make healthy choices for my body. The heart shape was to remind me to love myself & know that I was worth the effort. The day I lost it we had been to probably a dozen yard sales... I tried to retrace my steps with no luck at all. Its just a thought... not sure yet.

Finishing touches are going on my Deployment Challenge tonight... should be ready to share this weekend... when I suppose everyone will be off doing holiday things, lol. Maybe I'll wait and post about it on Tuesday morning...

Can you tell choices are not my strong suit today? lol

Okay I had to come back and add...

I just noticed I have 100 followers!!! Wow, I can't believe so many people read my dribble, lol. The Husband would be shocked! Thanks for following my "drama." :)